Don't want to jinx myself but....

I'm kinda afraid to even say this out loud but I actually feel better now then I have in probably 2 years.  I have even started working out and was able to loose 2 pounds.  I'm so happy that things seem to be stabilizing for me and in turn it will mean stabilization for my family also.  I just worry that everytime I seem to make an improvement I get so excited and then I fall backwards...but I guess that is the nature of living with Lupus.