Holding out hope?

I"m heading into the city this morning to the Hospital for Special Surgery in NY City to meet with a new rheumatologist and I'm really nervous about it, hence me posting at such an early hour.  I don't hold out much hope for getting relief or getting any different answers but I feel that I have to try as I'm not getting any answers from my doctors here on LI.  The only thing that is happing is that I am getting more and more pain.  I'm very thankful that my husband is going to come in with me to this appointment so that I have some morale support.